Hi there!
It is 3am here in India and I was unable to sleep so I thought of sharing my thoughts with you all as it has been long that I have written something on wordpress. I know that my english is not that very perfect when it comes to writing but then I love writing coz I pen down my real thoughts, emotions and experiences and above all I love to share with all of you.
Today my mood is really off as at this age I feel I have not even one single person in my life whom I can call as my true friend or relative or cousin. I have reached half way of my journey of life. I had many friends earlier, all my cousins use to admire me and I was the best child for my parents. but today things are just the opposite.
With passage of time I have learnt that noone in this world will stand by your side if you are sad or have no money. when you need real help from these so called very close people of yours they all will just vanish.
Trust me I do not blame them as I personally feel that money has that much of magic on you that you are unable to see the real side of others who may be seeking your help & so you are not able to understand how badly they might be in need of yours. A person who is in need of money is always hesitating to ask for it again and again. he or she is always struggling with so many things, sometimes ego, sometimes respect and sometimes looking for the right time to ask for whereas on the other side a person who has money is busy fulfilling his or her lavish needs to compete the so called society or always running after the dreams or may be he or she becomes egoistic….etc that they overlooks the real emotions of the needy person.
there was a time, I had a lot of money and all my relatives were always after me asking for funds and yes some of them I did helped too and some I did not. but today I realize one important thing, which I was blind that point of time, that I helped wrong people and did not helped the real ones. I do not blame myself as I believe in, what I have mentioned earlier aswell, that money has that very power that it makes you blind. And yes it does!
There was a time when two of my very close uncles asked me for help. I did helped one of them while the other uncle I did not helped much. Uncle whom I helped took the major amount from me and promised me to repay it back if or if not things go well. but I recieved less amount back and not only that he also disrespected me a lot at the time of returning it to me and also spread the wrong information all around.
On the other hand, the uncle whom I helped with the less amount, gave me the full amount back with interest but I ruined my relation with him because I did not helped him with more amount when he genuinely was seeking help.
he is no more today but every minute of my life I regret not giving him more money when he needed the most. I misunderstood him and acted weird which I should’nt have.
My soul carries this guilt as my uncle is nomore today whom otherwise if I would have said sorry atleast… I would have felt better but unfortunately now there is no way out. Still I prey to god that try to give me a moment where I can do a deed which makes his soul happy about me and he in returns forgives me where ever he might be as I do not want to carry this liability inside of me in my next journey of life.
I have done so much wrong unknowingly in the pride of money that I now sometimes regret. trust me when I say, none of the act was done intentionally. But now when I look back there is no delete button to it. I gave pain to my own people. I could not find the difference between who is mine and who is not.
I personally feel that we all are walking on a path, starting point of which we all know but none of us has any clue about the final destination. I am sure you will agree to this!
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