Christmas, Starbucks and Him!

I love my coffee, I mean my Starbucks cappuccino. I was writing my blog and sipping my favourite drink at Starbucks. It was Christmas eve and that day the place was crowded than usual. Looking out of the large window were snowflakes and a dummy of reindeers outside the entrance. It was a breathtaking view with a festive mood all around me.

Everyone has different ways of enjoying Christmas and for some, a Coffee on Christmas eve might sound boring but hola it’s Merry Christmas. I prefer to have calm evenings, enjoying the beauty of nature with my coffee or tea in my hands. Sometimes it can be wine too. But today it was coffee, soothing my soul on this auspicious evening. I am from India and I have never seen this view before so it was really magical for me and romantic as well. My kids would have loved this too.

I could see people faces filled with happiness and positivity. Everyone was in a festive mood and enjoying themselves with their friends and family.

On the table which was just next to me, I saw a couple enjoying their coffee with lime cake and tomato basil mozzarella sandwich. Both of them were busy on their respective phones and haven’t shared a look with each other for the past 30 minutes. I think they were together just for the sake of Christmas as I cannot see them enjoying each others company. Well, I have no right to comment on this. It’s their choice of living and my opinion definitely doesn’t matter to them nor my suggestion. So staring at them was not a nice idea.

On the other side, so many kids were hanging around with their besties. Many young couples were having lovey-dovey moments & old ones were trying to relive their sweet memories. These were true Christmas vibes. I could say, “love is around the corner”.

I could see some of the teenagers there must be wishing if they were adults and on the other side, adults are wanting to go back to their childhood days!

I was sitting alone with my coffee and laptop on my table but my mind had so much going on inside of it. I was missing someone. Someone whom I use to spend my lonely time with. Someone whom I use to share every little talk of my life. Someone who could make me smile even in my worst times. Someone whom I used to call my BBF (Best Friend Forever). He was the only person with whom I used to share my bottle of wine. These days I am not in talking terms with him.

In India, If you are married and talking to other men that too with a smile on your face, it’s considered bad and not a respectable relation. I am talking about a typical Punjabi family. So, I preferred to quit and behaved mysteriously with him. And he understood or not but accepted my decision.

Continuing to my story……….One part of me was thinking I did well as now I am not scared of people talking nonsense nor busy hiding or deleting talks with him. I was not doing wrong & had good intentions. But every time I cannot explain to the people around me the same as it’s not possible to control others from thinking. And the other half was thinking that I was really missing my friend as that was the place of like-minded people and open-minded too. I had so much to share but no one to share with.

You can find good friends but finding a true friend is not an easy job. I mean it’s all about comfort zone and compatibility with each other. I had some magnetic connection with him and I could share anything and everything with him without thinking even once. THAT’S what you call a true friendship. I do use to fight with him but we couldn’t stay apart much longer. With him, there was a warmth. I never got the vibes that he is somebody else. there was a feeling of belongingness.

This time it’s been a few months now. I never missed him this much as I was missing him on that Christmas eve, that too when I was far off from my place. My every sip had a new thought or memory with him.

I opened my Facebook account and checked his status but he was offline. He was not with me but still, he was part of me. It was a very different feeling. That evening I had spoken to my kids and my husband but still something was missing. I was trying to divert my attention but nothing helped!

I know many of you must be thinking that I am in LOVE but trust me when I say that it’s not LOVE at all. It’s not your fault as sometimes I too get confused. But If he would have been a girl, I don’t think the Love word would have appeared in your mind then. I am liberal and nonorthodox. I wouldn’t have hidden my feelings and trust me when I say that.

But that day it was really like missing a true friend. Those who have true friends just like I had once, can understand well!!

My Christmas was really incomplete without him. I knew that just one call would make things alright but I chose not to call. I always believed in staying strong and trying to remain, mum, if not necessary.

I wanted to overcome my weaknesses. Yes, he did become my weakness. I was sharing my secrets and my good times with him. Maybe I never found it necessary to have someone else as my best friend. But we don’t plan and make friends, right!

I was thinking if he is also missing me. If he is also feeling the same. After all, he is also a human being, it’s just a matter of penis and vagina and the body structure & not forgetting the skin type. I mean a lot of differences but humans are humans and I don’t want to get gender-biased. 😦

I finished my coffee and stepped out of the Cafe. I took a snap with the reindeers and moved along the path. It was really mesmerizing walking on those roads glittering with fairy lights all around.

I called it MAGICAL experience. But my best friend was missing!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! 🙂