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I was watching my pictures which were 8 years old. I could see, there was a spark in my eyes. Things were very difficult back then but still, I was very attractive and very enthusiastic. things were worse than what they are now still there was a shine on my face. Today things are much better than before but I now have become dull and less energetic.
Today I am on my own, have no problems but still I am not that happy. I can see my sparkles are missing. I know ageing is a natural process but does aging mean dullness to my skin. I mean I know so many around who are maybe in their 60’s or 70’s but they are damn good. I can see their skin is glowing than ever before. And I am just 39. I look much older to my age & more matured now. I know a dear friend of mine n she is far above my age but she is much active than I am. Also being a woman in her 70’s, she has a remarkable glow on her face.
What is it that is making me look so brown n dull. Is it because I have started compromising or is it because my soul is not that lively as it used to be. Earlier I was more demanding and never compromised. If I wanted something, it became part of me. I know things were tough back then but I worked hard to achieve them and never failed! luckily!
Today I let things go. I don’t demand. I accept the situation and try to fit myself in it. I am more concerned about my future and try to save.
Are these all good changes! Is it doing good to me! My mom used to say all the time, learn to manage your home, learn to stay calm and become like other females. Today when I have developed those characteristics in me, am I really happy! Is my mother happy with me? Is it good to act like others and is it good to become what you are not born like?
As we grow with time, we tend to learn so many things but learning and transforming are two different things. I have transformed myself into what others wished me to be like. And the worst part is, these others were never happy to see me happy!
After looking at my pictures, I am realizing, how important it is to be your own self. I was wrong to change for others. This has neither made me happy nor my mother. In fact, NOW I am not that closer to her.
I can say with my experiences that always listen to your heart and no one else. Never change your true being for anyone be whosoever it is. I remember so many people were jealous of me and today I myself have made them win on me. They are very happy to see me this way. Changing for others or because they are making you feel guilty of who you are will never do good! I can very well say this today! It is very important to enjoy the life as per your own terms!
God has made us different from others so never hesitate to be the one!
I did whatever others wanted me to do. or to put it more precisely , I tried doing everything whatever I could, to please all my so called relatives. But I found no happiness & due respect for myself.
In this process, every single day I lost myself and the damage caused to my soul, my emotions, my character, my physique, my body, my mind is Irreparable.
What I want to share with you all is that never try to please others by losing yourself. It is not bad to stay alone or to lead your life on your own terms till the time you are not hurting someone.
I now have to undergo a lot of hard work to heal my inner soul and also to get back to the original me. I know I’ll be able to achieve that as I am a strong believer in the phrase-“nothing is impossible.” But yes I wasted lot of my time in discovering this and I wish you do not do the same.
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